Feeling a Sense of 'I' In the Chest from the media Allow All Experience
When meditating, a man says he feels like a separate entity. Specifically, he feels this sense of 'I' in his chest. Rupert guides him to investigate this sensation in his chest, to see if he can find an entity, or 'I' there.
- Duration: 13 minutes and 29 seconds
- Recorded on: Aug 12, 2020
- Event: Seven Day 'Retreat at Home' – August
A woman says she reached a point of equanimity, and resistance to circumstances diminished. But now there is resistance to the peace or indifference to experience, and she seems to prefer that there be problems to solve. Rupert explains that the habitual activity of the ego is subsiding, is dying.
A self-described ex-Buddhist is surprised to find himself crying a lot in response to Christian music and even terms like 'Father.' Rupert explains that these texts are so full of love and pregnant with understanding, so his response makes sense.
On sitting for longer meditations, a woman finds that she falls asleep in the beginning of the meditation, and asks how to deal with this. Rupert suggests that long meditations are not necessary, it's not the length of time that is important.
A woman says that whenever she finds a silent moment, such as having her morning coffee, she tends to fill those little silences with content, like reading or watching a non-dual video. Rupert suggests she use those moments to return to her true nature rather than filling up the time with distractions.
When meditating, a man says he feels like a separate entity. Specifically, he feels this sense of 'I' in his chest. Rupert guides him to investigate this sensation in his chest, to see if he can find an entity, or 'I' there.
A woman says she gets panic attacks when she's out walking around when thoughts come up like 'I am this space,' and she asks Rupert how to feel safe with these truths, when the thoughts seem to separate in this understanding. Rupert suggests she start in less crowded areas to acclimate to this sense of non-localisation.
An long-time student of this teaching says that the meditations no longer have the same impact they used to five years ago, and he feels he's addicted to inspired states. Rupert explains that this is his new normal where realisation is no longer earth shattering or mind blowing.
A woman asks Rupert about the evolution of his career, from potter and artist, to teacher of non-duality. She asks about the art of his teaching, the words as they come forth, and how to live from there. He responds that being is infinite and indivisible, and that being is shared. Express from that understanding.
When sitting in silence and withdrawing attention from objects, there is this quiet, peaceful and pleasant space that feels subject-less. It's so pleasant that there is a question whether this is being aware of being aware or a way of dissociating? Rupert elaborates that spacing out can sometimes be a rejection of the now, but not necessarily an escape; the subject-less state is its own proof.
A man from Los Angeles has become aware of both anger and narcissistic tendencies along the path, which surprised him. He asks how to integrate shadow work when these aspects come up. Rupert suggests he notice the impulse, but not identify with the anger or the narcissism, because what he truly is, is neither angry nor narcissistic.
In the midst of the isolation of COVID a woman realises a tendency to wallow in feelings of loneliness, and other dark feelings. She asks how to deal with this from the understanding. Rupert speaks of the dissolving of emotions in the allowing space of awareness.
A woman says she reached a point of equanimity, and resistance to circumstances diminished. But now there is resistance to the peace or indifference to experience, and she seems to prefer that there be problems to solve. Rupert explains that the habitual activity of the ego is subsiding, is dying.
A self-described ex-Buddhist is surprised to find himself crying a lot in response to Christian music and even terms like 'Father.' Rupert explains that these texts are so full of love and pregnant with understanding, so his response makes sense.
On sitting for longer meditations, a woman finds that she falls asleep in the beginning of the meditation, and asks how to deal with this. Rupert suggests that long meditations are not necessary, it's not the length of time that is important.
A woman says that whenever she finds a silent moment, such as having her morning coffee, she tends to fill those little silences with content, like reading or watching a non-dual video. Rupert suggests she use those moments to return to her true nature rather than filling up the time with distractions.
When meditating, a man says he feels like a separate entity. Specifically, he feels this sense of 'I' in his chest. Rupert guides him to investigate this sensation in his chest, to see if he can find an entity, or 'I' there.
A woman says she gets panic attacks when she's out walking around when thoughts come up like 'I am this space,' and she asks Rupert how to feel safe with these truths, when the thoughts seem to separate in this understanding. Rupert suggests she start in less crowded areas to acclimate to this sense of non-localisation.
An long-time student of this teaching says that the meditations no longer have the same impact they used to five years ago, and he feels he's addicted to inspired states. Rupert explains that this is his new normal where realisation is no longer earth shattering or mind blowing.
A woman asks Rupert about the evolution of his career, from potter and artist, to teacher of non-duality. She asks about the art of his teaching, the words as they come forth, and how to live from there. He responds that being is infinite and indivisible, and that being is shared. Express from that understanding.
When sitting in silence and withdrawing attention from objects, there is this quiet, peaceful and pleasant space that feels subject-less. It's so pleasant that there is a question whether this is being aware of being aware or a way of dissociating? Rupert elaborates that spacing out can sometimes be a rejection of the now, but not necessarily an escape; the subject-less state is its own proof.
A man from Los Angeles has become aware of both anger and narcissistic tendencies along the path, which surprised him. He asks how to integrate shadow work when these aspects come up. Rupert suggests he notice the impulse, but not identify with the anger or the narcissism, because what he truly is, is neither angry nor narcissistic.
In the midst of the isolation of COVID a woman realises a tendency to wallow in feelings of loneliness, and other dark feelings. She asks how to deal with this from the understanding. Rupert speaks of the dissolving of emotions in the allowing space of awareness.