Experiencing Gaps During Deep Meditation

At this retreat, I can go much deeper in meditation. There’s a state where there’s just the knowing that I exist. Then comes a gap where I don’t notice – and it’s not falling asleep – and after the gap, I notice I exist again. Is this my resistance? Rupert says: ‘Whatever was absent in the gap was not your being. From the point of view of the waking state, deep sleep is like a kind of gap, an empty blank void. That’s what the waking state mind thinks deep sleep is because the waking state mind only knows objects. If you were to ask whatever it is that is present in deep sleep, “what is your experience now?”, it would never say “a blank empty void.” It would say, “I am.” So, the gap you are talking about is what your mind says later on. From the point of view of your mind, it is a gap – void, blank empty nothingness. But from the point of view of your being, it is your presence.’

From event 07 - 14 September, 2025 Seven-Day Retreat at Mandali, 7–14 September 2025 – ‘Meister Eckhart and the Love of God’

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