The Desperate Self in Dissolution

When seeing the world as merely sense perceptions without meanings, why does the feeling that there is no actual person or self create such desperation? Rupert says: ‘The sense of being a separate person feels threatened because it feels it’s going to die – there’s no place for it. When it comes back after the experience, it feels upset because it thinks, “I don’t like what happened because I wasn’t present to claim it.” The old separate self should feel threatened by what we do here. King Lear hears about what we speak of and gets excited, thinking “I would love that experience.” But at the threshold, he realises “I, King Lear, cannot have the experience of being John Smith (the actor who is playing the role of Lear). I must subside for that experience to be revealed.” Then he thinks, “Maybe I don’t want it after all.” This is the dance you’re doing now. Tell the real Tina not to worry – who she really is will survive. All that won’t survive is who she never really was.’

From event 05 - 12 April, 2025 Seven-Day Retreat at Mandali, 5–12 April 2025

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